Friday, wth.

For some reason I didn't think that I would survive this week because this week was, well, strange. I'm actually really tired from it. And the worst part about all this is that I don't even remember what happened Monday. Maybe nothing worth mentioning happened because this week has been really lazy. I think every single day, I've had friends at my house. It's hard to get a day's worth of time to my own thoughts nowadays. Life's become timeless and I think that's genuinely stupid for days like these. What I mean by that is that I've lost track of each day and every day seems like a copy of the previous day. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not, but I know that it will create problems in the future. I didn't go to History at all this week because I skipped on Tuesday and it was cancelled on Thursday so that's nice. I took a test for my geo class and I think I did well on that so that's nice as well. Rented Rainbow Six Vegas 2 for ps3 so I could play with Timmy and co, but it didn't work for some reason so, not so nice? It's a cool game, so that's nice, though. I changed my guitar strings. That's nice. I went to the $10 K-BBQ place and I don't feel like puking so that's nice as well. This blog entry sucks. Nature Valley cereal is awesome.

As of late...

Life is surreal. People have told me that visiting a foreign country is surreal. I wonder what that would be like if your own immediate home feels surreal. I think it is sad. I think my life is sad. It is a sad thing that once people reach this stage in life, you either have a grip on your future or you don't. You are either set or you aren't. I know the words I am writing here are only my thoughts etched into a digital database, but ffs, I post here so people can read it. But it is entirely up to you whether you read this or not. If I end up talking to myself all the time, then so be it. That's just how it was meant to be and I'll be content with that.

I know that people don't often read things to the very end. I don't always do that either but I've learned that in many cases, the ending of things is the best part. This entry is mostly rhetorical so if you find any of this offensive, then...just don't.

Anyways, it has been a reoccuring question to me...what am I doing? Everything. Life is in bad shape for me and I don't know how to fix it. I'm not the only one that feels this way about their own life and I know that many of you that are reading this are able to relate. It is a truly terrible feeling to be almost ready to move on in life and have close to no idea what you are planning on doing. My question to you, the reader, is whether you find that in any way, a deterrance to my existence?

Arrogance.


The heart of my problem lies with motivation. My motivation's a vehicle and I'm running on empty, but that is okay. I was running on 89 until then when I need 91 to operate correctly.
I know that I'm missing motivation. That's completely obvious. I have stated it countless times to many of you. As far as school goes, I have no real reason to go right now. I'm just going to go just in case something comes along later. I am not enjoying this at all. School is more depressing than it is enlightening and every day feels the same. Every day seems to just drag on and I'm supposed to just go along with it.

I'm just missing motivation. But this is complicated. It will take a lot of effort to bring it back. I'm tossing dice and if this doesn't work, then I'm out of options. This sucks.

Tin's Birthday (Continued)

So we did end up going to the Japanese place on 182nd and Western and it cost a whole $50 for me because I had to spot Rikio. We did end up going in suits. Danny, Mike, Tin, and I showed up in suits. I actually had on jeans and my hat for spice, but it was great anyways. So we ate our hearts out and lost a lot of money there then left to see an Evo 9 parked right outside which I got pictures of.


We then went to Albertsons and bought a carton of milk and a container of chocolate syrup along with two packages of cupcakes and some candles. So after getting kicked out of Alta Vista park by a cop, we went to Famima where we stabbed 19 candles in a 1" diameter cupcake and we lit them all up and sang happy birthday for Tin. We did it twice actually because the first time was so damn spectacular. Basically, we made a flaming fireball of a cupcake.




And so, we had our straight edge birthday thing for Tin by having cupcakes and chocolate milk. The Stawberry Shortcakes had developed our own LARPing system. We each made nicknames for ourselves which I forgot some of them. We also finished classifying our own classes. Danny is our warrior and paladin, Stephanie is Scholar, Mike is black mage, Rikio is monk, Tin is ninja, Timmy is samurai, Calvin is white mage, German is merchant, Rayna is ranger, Sean is bard, Nigel is dancer, Christian is engineer and I forgot the rest , lol too many to name. But anyways, after destroyed the second package of cupcakes (we never got around to it) we took the remaining ice cream that we bought(1.25gal of ice cream that we only ate top layer of) and we gave it to one of danny's friends. But after that we went to Hermosa to yell at drunk people, which we never got to do because Danny totally juked me and made a U-Turn and then it just got retarded there, so I'll leave that part out, but after we finally regrouped, someone wanted to go to a porn shop so Sean and I followed Danny's car and went to a porn shop only to see that it was closed. That's when we went to Del Taco I think? lol I forgot. Danny didn't want to go to drive through the Drive-Thru so we decided to walk-thru. They never answered us and another car came anyways so we stepped to the side. Danny said "Watch this!" then as the other car's ordering, he yells "I WANT A CHICKEN SOFT TACO!" After doing it again, the guys in the car were like "HEY WTF!" then they got out of the car as we were walking back to the car. They turned out to be like locs of some kind but the one guy that came walking to our cars realized that there were about eight of us, then went back to his car to get his friend. By this point, we're laughing at him and he doesn't get near us. Needless to say most of us were ready for a fight but it ended up not happening. After that ppl just started to go home because it was around 3AM by then. That's all I will write about because I just remember being tired and getting a fish taco. End of story.

Tin's birthday

So the time is 6:41PM and today is Tin's birthday dinner even though his actual birthday was a week ago. Today was quite the adventure getting to Venice to go to the body shop to get my bumper replaced, finally. I had finally built the incentive to go and call in so that I could take my car in to get its bumper fixed. So soon after I got that fixed and then went home. On the way to Venice, Danny came along in his Jeep. We had a lot of crap happen on the road including merging into other lanes and clearing so I could get in and lots of cuts and stuff. There was one instance where Danny merged over and drove slow so that I could get over but another SUV decided to drive in the shoulder to get around him. It was great. But yeah Tin wants everyone to dress in a suit so I'm going in a Hawaiian shirt. Will edit and add more later.

First post

I find it interesting that every once in a while after being bored and having nothing to do, suddenly have a dozen things on my hands that I need done before I sleep. Such a thing occured to me last night before I decided that it was late. I spent hours last night trying to find music that I've neglected to find otherwise and before I knew it, it was 3AM before I was able to sleep. This happens to me often, and it is no surprise. The only thing about it is that I needed to wake up at 10AM to get ready for school, which I handled nicely. This weekend, I am going to Mammoth Mountains for a weekend trip, but I am kind of skeptical about this trip because I have a decent amount of homework. Because it is a vacation spot, it is not common to find a wifi spot to gain access to the internet. This I need this weekend. It would cause me much grief if I am not granted internet because I won't be able to do my homework until Sunday night when I get home, which will not be very fun because I have to have it ready for class by Monday morning. All I can do right now is just hope that there is internet at the place I'm going to.